josied's Cancer Blog
December 7, 2007
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Ok, I have not done a great job blogging….normally I would excell at this…..I will do better. I have been in the midst of my second attempt at reconstruction through DIEP surgeries. I just returned from NYC again a few days ago for the second of what is to be a 3 surgery process maybe 4. I have rebounded really well…Dr. Levine states I am his “Poster Patient” well….I do my best I am in this to win…survive and move on and hopefully advocate and help others through this long road. Its no problem that he is at the top of his game in his field and has such a gracious spirit.
Diep reconstruction is fascinating and not a form of recon lots of people know about…if anyone ever needs information I am happy to share, we have kept a log of photos from beginning to hopefully soon end of my processes through cancer and recon which we plan to put together on cds/dvds for local physicans and surgeons to use to share with patients b/c it is only fare that everyone everywhere know the options that are out there….I am happy to send any info or pixs that may be helpful privately until I decide where to publicly format.
My little boy is such a champ, excited about the holidays and that he believes Mommy is even closer to being able to sword fight again…...this I am not certain of….but I am so ready to be able to be more active!
Ok I am back and really want to do this…I know I need to face what alllllll has happened on this long road and accept it , continue on in a healthy, positive way. Sometimes, for me anyway, it just seems like the last 2 years, no matter how ill, weak I have been its just been non stop….doctors, treatments, scans, resting, meds, research that maybe I really have not totally dealt with the reality of how much my self and life have changed. It is important at some point to take stock and realize this to continue forward…. THis I believe may be one of the ways to accomplish that for me anyway…maybe…I can encourage someone along the way. So many days I have found myself wondering ok when will things go back to normal?? I know now there is no normal and to consider “normal” is quite a bore anyway right?? It is a fight, I guess it really never ends….maybe slows…..My little boy says…soon Mommy no more Doctors for you ever…just Dr. Ralei (his name) I will take care of you…..shouldn’t it be me doing that for him….what a joy he has been and he is whom I fight for, fists up we never give up!
Have a fantastic day…sorry for the rant I am still having to take some pain meds and just feel a sudden accomplishment to be where I am today. 2 years ago today I got the early before 40 Mammo that DX with BC….in between my Mother having a stint put in her heart and my Sister in law being in the hospital on her birthday…my brother kept calling me where are you??? I had the bday cake…..I just remeber telling him….I am getting my boobies squished I am right next door…just give me a minute….I am so glad I took the minute that day!
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